Blue Happy Living

A few weeks ago Sonia from the Wylie News Paper contacted me and ask to do a story about me, my art, my restored life journey and Blue Happy. Well thats a lot to talk about in one little story I thought to myself but okay. I met with her and she ask me all kinds of questions. We spent a good couple of hours up at Doc’s talking. A few days after we met she contacted me and said she had decided to write the story for a local magazine instead of the paper. She felt my restored life journey was important to tell others who might be struggling themselves.

I’ve been so nervous about the magazine coming out.  I don’t know why my entire life as it is today has been an open book here on my blog.  I guess it was giving up the power to someone else to write the article.  After all when I tell my story it’s in my own words and thoughts.  When Sonia brought the magazine to me today at Doc’s I started reading it.  I had to stop, I almost cried in front of her.  To this day I can think about were I was 5 years ago and just burst into tears.  My life was on a fast track to bad health and misery.  I think about all the things I hated about myself and how I wanted to change them but never really got there.  Why now, what changed and  what gave me the will power.  I can answer that in one word or name Ethan.  My grand daughters weren’t around then but he was and just a few weeks old when I made up my mind to restore my life.  I loved my kids and my husband but there was something about being his grandmother (Lolli) that changed my heart.  I wanted to be here for him, I wanted to play with him and do art together,  I wanted him to see me grow old and I wanted to see him grow up.

Sonia told me she thought my story might inspire someone, I hope she is right.  It would make the hard parts of this journey so worth the bumpy ride.  No matter good or bad it was all worth it.  I’ve learned more about myself than ever before.  I know I have worth that is way beyond my size or a number on a scale.  I know I’m a bit damaged and dented from my past but  all things can be restored.  I value who I am, who I have become and most of all I value my seasoned life.   Funny that Sonia decided to write the story on the week of my 5 year goal mark I had set for myself.  Life is funny that way sometimes it all just falls into place even when your aren’t planning on it doing that.  Thank you Sonia for writing my story with the hopes of inspiring others.