WOW what a week! Or should I say what a month its been with all the ups and downs of the remodel and preparing for school I let it all get to me. I spent Thursday at the doctor complaining about a headache that won’t go away and a weird pain in my chest area. I’m not one for going to the doctor so if I go I’m worried about something. I go from one side of the coin to the other really fast. I made the mistake of looking online to figure out what was wrong. Within 30 minutes I was going to have a heart attack and the headache well that was a brain tumor. I won’t keep you in suspense very long I was told it was stress. I had a stress test awhile back and that was all good so Doc says I need to reel in the stress a bit. Clearly she doesn’t know me. Bahahaha.
So I’m going to be doing some house cleaning of my life to get organized so stress is at a low-level. That’s really easier said than done. I find it hard to say NO when asked to do something. When I see something that needs to be done or a fundraising need I volunteer before I’m asked. I need to learn I can’t do everything. That my faith, family and friends are the most important things. I’m going to reach deep and put things in my heart in order. Really if I get sick or run myself down what good will I be to anyone.
This weekend I’m going to spend a few hours with some of my biggest supporters through my weight loss journey. These ladies are easy on the stress. They have seen me at my worst and at my most stressed. When we are all together we laugh and giggle, yes there is a difference. I find myself relaxed and calm. It’s a great way to start off the new less stressful life I’m going to build for myself.
I have some things to let go of and this will be hard. Just blogging about it makes me tighten up and cause my heart to pound. In the big picture letting go will give me peace and more control of my stress. Letting go will let me turn the corner. Letting go will free me. These are things that I have continued to do even though I knew it was eating away at my heart and emotions. I can be complicated but I can be quite simple with most things. I need to follow the simpler path. I need to be more in tune with my life and what is happening around me. I don’t want to let life just happen I want to be within what is happening around me. I want to live every moment even the simple things need to be viewed as big moments.
I’m most happy with my family, friends, painting, teaching, blogging, working out and working on my house. These things need to move to the front of the line in order for me to lower the stress level. I will be in prayer so that my faith can lead me. I love being active but I will strive to be active in a positive way.
Everyday being Blue Happy is a work in progress. I work on it all the time. Most days are but there are days I overload my plate and I don’t have the time to do the things that let me reach the Blue Happy level I want and need to be at. What do you need to remove from your busy life? Can you imagine having a lower stress level? Think about what will make you get to your Blue Happy place and run towards it. Go be Blue Happy!
